I can't believe it has been a year already. One whole year of relief. One whole year of knowing that you are our forever daughter. One whole year of not having to worry about if you are staying with us or leaving to live somewhere else. I can't believe it has been one whole year of pure bliss.
April 22nd, your Adoption Day, will always hold a special place in my heart.
You have brought so much joy and happiness into our lives since the day you came and your little personality has blossomed so much over this last year. You have a way of making all of us laugh - the way you stand on a chair and wave your hands around like you are the ring leader of a circus. And then how you tell us to clap for you and you take a bow. Of course this is all happening while we are suppose to be doing family scripture study. You definitely have us all wrapped around your little finger.
Recently I purchased a bunch of adoption books for you. The day they came in the mail I was on my way to do some grocery shopping. I sat in the parking lot and started reading them. As I sat and read "I Wished For You" tears streamed down my face. You are still too young to really understand the book but we sit and read it together anyway. I change the name of the bear to your name because you always get a kick out of stories if I put your name in.
I Wished for You by Marianne Richmond
"Mama, Tell me again how I'm your wish come true"
"A long time ago, a wish started growing in my heart. At first, it was a quiet wish that nobody knew. Then it became an out-loud wish that grew and grew and grew. Until one day, my wish came true."
"Why did you wish for me, Mama?"
"Because, I had an empty place in my heart that I wanted to fill with love for a special child like you."
"Oh. What about the mama who grew me in her tummy? Didn't she wish for me, too?"
"Sometimes, Nevaeh, a mama will grow a baby in her belly, and for all kinds of reasons, she'll decide she cannot be the very best mama she wants to be. The mama who grew you loved you enough to make a different wish- a wish for a family who would love her little one with a total and adoring love. The kind of love I have for you."
"Mama, Did you wish for me by name?"
"When I first wished my wish, I didn't know your name. But that didn't stop my wishing. I asked God to look around and find the child who would be the perfect one for me."
"Nevaeh, of all the children in the whole wide world, God picked you for me."
"Did you wish for me all day, Mama? Or only when the stars were out?"
"All the time. I wished for you with my morning coffee, and when I made my bed. I couldn't get my wish for you out from in my head."
"Did you ever think, that your wish might not come true?"
"Oh yes...I wished for you through many phone calls and through mountains of paperwork. I wished for you while I waited and waited and waited. "
"Sometimes, I didn't hear any news about your for weeks or months. But I held onto my wish tightly - like the string on a balloon."
"One day... One glorious, special, wonderful day, I found out my wish was coming true."
"What did you do?"
"I shouted for joy! And I cried happy tears. I told all my friends... and they hugged me and cried, too. Everyone knew how much I had been wishing for you."
""Do wishes always come true?"
"No, not all of our wishes come true. But don't ever stop wishing for the hopes of your heart."
"But I came true."
"Yes, you did, Nevaeh. I wished for you , and you are always and forever my wish come true."
Thank you, Nevaeh, for bringing us so much love and laughter. Thank you for helping us to learn to have faith and rely on God when all hope seems lost. Thank you for being my wish come true.
Your Forever Momma