Have I ever mentioned that this open adoption thing is hard?
So you might ask...
Why do you do it then?
Sometimes, I am not sure.
Sometimes,I think it would be so much easier to just pretend she doesn't have "other" family.
Sometimes, things are awkward
and sometimes they just drive me crazy.
I haven't written much about our visit lately because
there has been so much "Drama" in B and M's lives.
Today I came to the conclusion once again that
Daddy B is so much more together and in love with this little girl
than Mommy M.
I really don't mind bringing her to visit him.
He spends his whole time playing with her.
And she loves hanging out with him
Today we even picked up Grandma N
and Nevaeh had a great time playing with her hat.
Plus, Daddy B brought her a Kung Fu Panda Bear.
It's been a while since Nevaeh has seen Daddy B.
(Part of the Drama)
So she didn't go running into his arms as usual.
It didn't take long for her to warm up to him but I made
the mistake of calling him Daddy once and
she stopped and looked at me funny and then said
"that's not my daddy, that's Daddy B..."
There was a huge blowup on Valentine's Day over how she addressed them.
Let's just say "more drama" and leave it at that.
After visiting with Daddy B we went to take food to
I won't go into detail about our visit with her.
I thought about it and it just wouldn't be fair for me to
post her problems on an open blog.
But trust me...
The woman drives me crazy with so much DRAMA, DRAMA, DRAMA!!!!!
And so I go back to thinking about the whole open adoption thing.
It's hard on me.
I don't like "DRAMA".
But in the end it still feels right.
And in the end there is a little girl who knows she is loved by so many.
And sometimes we do things we hate for the people we love even if it means dealing with the DRAMA.